Depression as I’ve come to know it… It has been a year or two since I’ve been weighted down by the sand that fills up every limb of my body. Draining me of the ability to do the simplest tasks. I still remember the last time this debilitating depression lingered for an extended period of time clearly. Finding a home within me after months of built up anxiety, the only escape from this cloud was a complete remodel of my life. Even saying this now I feel like I’m not giving thi

In a room full of people I am most alone. Clinging to my neighbor can help ease the insecurities, but even then I am usually all alone inside myself. I may know every face in the room. It may be a classroom I’ve entered every day for months. It doesn’t matter the second I cross certain thresholds my throat closes and my mouth no longer creates audible sound. I have not been officially diagnosed with selective mutism. But I can’t help but draw connections and relate. Thinking

Step 1: Create a Vision Board About two years ago this time I sat on the floor of my room clipping photos from magazines and scouring the internet for inspiration in hopes of covering one of my bedroom walls with the motivation needed to make big changes in my then life. I felt excited and full of hope as my wall began to fill. I taped up images and index cards. The latter full of motivational phrases and movie titles that I planned to research and write about. All the movies